depressing post.

I'm crying, and for once it's not about my weight. No, I'm crying tears of happiness. I'm reading Tumblr blogs of SI and ana, and I'm basically reading every single one of my thoughts on here. I understand the feeling of alone-ness now... before I read these, I never considered myself alone. I always knew in the back of my head, everyone's had these thoughts before, it's not like I'm the first or only one. I'm not unique for feeling this way, it's ordinary. but now.. after reading these.. I understand so much more in depth now. I understand that while I'm looking at a girl that seems like.. for example, a stoner, I could judge that she uses it as an outlet and never think anything of it again. But for all I know, she could have Schizophrenia or something, or even an ed. While our lives seem completely separate, we're all the same. It's just.. shocking to realize that a complete stranger's life sounds like a replica of mine, and she's so much older and wiser too. I know older people always look down on younger people, I do it too. I don't know why we do, but just because they're younger doesn't mean they don't have the same thoughts as you or the same problems. Some of the wisest people you meet might very well be the youngest. If I ever showed this to an older person, they'd probably skim it or not even pretend to read it and say something along the lines of, "Oh, that's nice honey." Well, fuck you too. I will continue my secret life, feeling much more secure knowing I'm not alone. Knowing I can have help when I feel down, even if I have to get it from complete strangers.

After that depressing thought, I bid you all farewell.. Let's hope for 149 :)