Snow :)

As a lot of people know, this hella big snow storm is happening. So today was a snow day.. Which means that I don't need to eat lunch to make the people at school think I'm eating regularly, and that there's no after school binge again because I've been surrounded by all this food all day! I woke up at around 3:30 ish because I had to wake up early my whole weekend. I really hope school gets cancelled again tomorrow, because tomorrow is baked potato day at school. But, a good thing about that is that I've stopped using ranch. Yaay.

Yesterday... gosh, yesterday was... well all in all good kinda? Started off with my weight being 149, and I ate an apple for lunch. A para saw my plate and asked if that was all I was gonna eat, so I made this big excuse about having an amazing omelette for breakfast and not being very hungry. And I mean I had all the stops out, I knew what kind it was gonna be and who made it and why I don't regularly eat breakfast, which she ended up asking anyway. She completely bought it. Cha-chiiiing! Plus, if you're wondering, one day when I was seriously hungry and craving an omelette I asked for it and they never made it. I daydream about food, no joke, but the only good thing about that is that the very same day I asked for the omelette, I didn't binge afterward. So, continuing with yesterday, I came home and had a huge junk food binge. I ate a lot of grapes, I made ramen (but threw it away :D), and I ate a lot of Nacho Cheese Doritos and Lays Barbecue chips.. It's really scary having a binge if you think about it. I knew all the calories and junk I was shoving in my mouth, but I didn't care. I knew I'd pay for it. I knew I'd never be skinny if I kept it up. I knew I'd never have my dream role in future ballets, I'd be a fat pig sitting in the audience, yet I kept on. Ew.  Anyway, right after the binge I practiced pointe work for about an hour till my parents got home.. That's the only bad thing about snow days, I can't practice pointe because the only hardwood floor I can practice on is upstairs and my mom yells about it being loud from downstairs.... Needless to say, I can't practice upstairs when anyone is home. So after school I usually practice, and yesterday I also had a pointe class at the studio. :) I really love ballet.

And today was good. All I've had so far was some grapes, and I've been listening to my stomach rumble. It's like music to my ears.

Oh, and I was 148 today! Yay.. For a February goal, I'll try for 145 and beyond for Valentines day. I can do this!